Sunday, January 10, 2010

2010 looks to be an interesting year

Consider this fair warning that there is a very real possibility that this blog will turn into a way of journalling my quest to get healthy. In the past I have made half-assed attempts at it, with limited success. I have lost weight, gained weight, tried running, tried gyms, tried DVDs at home, tried Weight Watchers, tried walking it off ... ok - you get the idea, although that list is not exhaustive (if it wasn't sad, it would be laughable how much I have tried). What I have NOT tried, is dealing with the reasons why I prefer to binge eat and sit on my duff instead of getting exercise. I have a pretty good idea of the "why", but that isn't enough. I have said it before, but it is worth saying again: I don't want to go the way my parents did. I either make changes now, or I risk that very problem.

So. I am embarking on what promises to be a shiteous journey of major changes.

I will need all the encouraging words I can get, so my request to anybody here is that if you don't have anything supportive to say, please don't comment. I know a lot of my friends will tell me that "you look great" or "you are being hard on yourself", but neither of those are true anymore. I may have a fabulous new hair colour, but I can't deny that my body has changed a lot in the last few years, and not for the better.

The only thing that I can guarantee is that the next few months are going to be hard, and I am not looking forward to the struggle ahead. That is probably a defeatist attitude, isn't it ... gonna have to work on that too, I guess.


Angela said...

What is ultimately most important is that you feel good in your skin, so you're totally right that anything we say is secondary to how you feel.


Oh, and I'd do a little basic yoga first. In fact, I should do a little basic yoga too. **grin**

Anonymous said...

I support you in whatever you do! Ill be there all the way! I want you here for the next 60 years. - Cal